Yes, I am 23! My life seems to be running at full speed without a break. There is now a monotony to life. The monotony brings about a calm which no one would have guessed it would. And then it's struck by a storm. (Gosh, I sound monotonous)
Little did I realise that I wasn't 50 to enjoy the monotony of life! And when it struck me I was half way through my race to become 24! Being the enthusiast I am, I was worried to know I could be happy with such a life. I always had my hands filled with work - with my little to do lists all over my room to that sense of accomplishment I feel when I've done something, with creating something new, with getting my hands dirty with the gooey chocolate from the chocolate cake I would have wanted to bake, to tapping out the keys on my laptop to write about something which struck me, to meeting friends and family, to doing absolutely nothing but just thinking at times! I was always busy.
And then I realised I stopped doing things I liked. I had stopped being spontaneous! Could I blame this on my age? That's the most convenient and clichéd reason ever. I have learnt time and again that if there is anyone or anything to blame for anything in your life - It is you and only you! I had let people walk over my parade, people who seemed worth it. But everything seems worth it when it's gift wrapped.
All that glitters ain't gold - I've heard this time and again from a very young age and only now did it strike me (with a little nudging which happened from external forces) that I fell for the glitter! What I didn't realise was that the non - glittered life seemed so much more real, so much more fun, so much more full of being the real me! People do grumble that I have become averse to my past and I've become a more strong minded person. Emotions do not get to me often but it does a lot of times but not as before. I remain the same person I was in matter of the qualities I had minus the fact that I allow anyone and everyone to rain on my parade.
It was indeed time for that!
Holidays - It made me realise the life I led minus the glitter. It seemed wonderful still. It seemed beautiful. It made me happy, I didn't have these added strings bogging me down. And on thinking over it I realised that I was always leading a life which was carefree, which seemed so free spirited and I Loved it! I loved it so much that I did feel like celebrating by going on a trip to the Himalayas. And that's when God smirks and says - "That's enough, Child! You're still getting your lazy mass of flesh and bones to office!"
Little did I realise that I wasn't 50 to enjoy the monotony of life! And when it struck me I was half way through my race to become 24! Being the enthusiast I am, I was worried to know I could be happy with such a life. I always had my hands filled with work - with my little to do lists all over my room to that sense of accomplishment I feel when I've done something, with creating something new, with getting my hands dirty with the gooey chocolate from the chocolate cake I would have wanted to bake, to tapping out the keys on my laptop to write about something which struck me, to meeting friends and family, to doing absolutely nothing but just thinking at times! I was always busy.
And then I realised I stopped doing things I liked. I had stopped being spontaneous! Could I blame this on my age? That's the most convenient and clichéd reason ever. I have learnt time and again that if there is anyone or anything to blame for anything in your life - It is you and only you! I had let people walk over my parade, people who seemed worth it. But everything seems worth it when it's gift wrapped.
All that glitters ain't gold - I've heard this time and again from a very young age and only now did it strike me (with a little nudging which happened from external forces) that I fell for the glitter! What I didn't realise was that the non - glittered life seemed so much more real, so much more fun, so much more full of being the real me! People do grumble that I have become averse to my past and I've become a more strong minded person. Emotions do not get to me often but it does a lot of times but not as before. I remain the same person I was in matter of the qualities I had minus the fact that I allow anyone and everyone to rain on my parade.
It was indeed time for that!
Holidays - It made me realise the life I led minus the glitter. It seemed wonderful still. It seemed beautiful. It made me happy, I didn't have these added strings bogging me down. And on thinking over it I realised that I was always leading a life which was carefree, which seemed so free spirited and I Loved it! I loved it so much that I did feel like celebrating by going on a trip to the Himalayas. And that's when God smirks and says - "That's enough, Child! You're still getting your lazy mass of flesh and bones to office!"
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