Bringing Up Ammachi!

Ammachi and I are like the South and the North Poles! But recently Amma discovered that Ammachi and I were alike in just one way: Both of us are like Nightmare' come alive!
Amma' worst nightmare would probably have started the day I was born. I loved sleeping during the day, I still do! But the minute my mind told me everyone was on the verge of going to Sleep, I would get up slowly and then howl my head out! Amma would get up with a jolt groggy, tired after a very long day! I realise the same thing Ammachi does, she sleeps through the day and the minute everyone' home and goes to rest she'll start calling us for extremely silly reasons to us! But extremely important reasons to her!
She has started a quit food movement at home which gives Amma the experience of Living hell by making her eat. She has had the same experience with me! I always make a big fuss to eat . As I am an extremely choosy person be it in eating or anything else! Ammachi supports me in the same but maybe I am a few slabs better than her! Though I have the gene of
praising myself which Ammachi does not!
I have always made Amma be a spectator of my life! I have never made them run my life upto now! The last a mother would want are Children running their Life! No wonder they say what goes around comes back around. So Parents look after children upto a particular time and after that how ever tough it is for parents to accept they have to hand over the baton to their children! They have to trust their children and make them run the race for them! After all did they not bring you pride all the years where they ran their own race? Ammachi was a very active person and she has also never made anyone run her life and now it is so tough to even think that she cannot do a single thing. Now as my little brother has also taken over the baton from my parents. They are living in a world filled with Angelic Devils. Because how ever angry you get with us, you just let it melt away once you look into our eyes and realise that we did not do anything intentionally. But believe me, We could easily form a living hell for anyone!
Hats off Amma and Ramaniammachi for bringing up Ammachi! And of course Amma for bringing me Up! You do deserve a Standing Ovation.

From Ammachi to Amma to Me!

Malayalam movies have this way of getting around which no other Stream of cinema has, on Me! Its genre always being oriented towards family! I have been a fan of Malayalam movies from a very young age, though the language doesn't come across as a cake walk for me! Its a walking, talking real life scenario which we just have not heard about! Recently, I was watching this movie in which the heroine' words caught my attention! She told that she had never seen her mother, never heard much of her but she knows that she loves her mother very much! I wondered what kind of love was that? An unseen Love? An unheard Love? Love in it' purest again! I by the Grace of God have grown up with a Mother! But not once have I recalled ever Thanking her for just being there, Ever telling her that I love her! She may not be the best in a scale of the best Mother', but after all she is my mother! That love is there, it is an underlying Love which I guess not every Child talks about! The same happened to a generation before, My Grandmother and her daughters! Ammachi may not be the best! She may fight, hurt people' feelings.... but as I have said once before and I say it again "The truth always Hurts!". And at times we need to be brought back to reality rather than sitting on cloud 9 and think all is well with the world! Ammachi has always spoken her mind on anything and for those reasons she is not the most loved! But I know how much ever Daughters and Mothers fight, there is an underlying Understanding and Love they will always share! This is dedicated to My Ammachi and My Ma to tell them how much I love them! To my Aunts and Cousins (the girls) That each one of you have taught me so much about Life and Love! Thank You And I Love you all a lot!

When Perfect turns Im- Perfect!

She had been through enough to realise she was Truly, Madly, Deeply in Love with Imperfect! She knows it will always be a long lost dream, a dream which she once dreamt of! A White wedding with The Imperfect guy she loved! She never once thought of Mr Perfect! It would hurt him she knows but it would hurt her if she carried on! She would rather have Loved and then Lost, than to have never loved at all! She wonders whether she is self centered.... She wonders whether she should slowly make an exit out of this "Love Triangle"! She does not want to be the reason for many a heartbreak, cause even she had been at the receiving end and OUCH it did hurt! She probably will never tell Imperfect about this, She would never have the guts to ever...... but one day she wishes he will come to know! Love Stories so complicated yet we cant live without them! The journey this far has been Great, But she knows if She carries on...... it would just hurt her and even more all the people who love her! Guess this is the finale..... But the ending aint happy! Someone once told me when I was small, "If your story' ending aint happy, That aint the ending!" She hope' Some day..... Her Dream would come true!

When Perfect turns Im-Perfect

The Heel Of Achiles for many young girls is their heart.... It was no different for her! She always made Her Heart the judge of Matters of the Heart... Only to get hurt, time and again! Her mind would warn her about the Implications her actions would lead to... Alas, her heart seemed like a young, free spirit! She gathered up all her courage to tell Mr Imperfect what was in her mind, Only to get a simple reply "... but Mr Perfect stole you away!" Mr Perfect did not steal her away, He had given her an Ultimatum! An Ultimatum which she thought she would never be able to give! She love' Mr Perfect for him but...! She wondered if She should let go... She wondered whether it was worth fighting for... She wondered if it was all worth the hurt she had been put through! Alas... The umpredictable things of Life always remain unpredictable! Maybe she should follow the basic rule of Life: " When you let go of something You badly need in your life and if it does come back, It was always yours!"

Its Christmas Time Once again....

When we were small, Christmas was always spent with Appacha and Ammachi! Everyone came down, leaving all the work and studies they had just to enjoy being with the family! It was a time filled with shopping and gifts and Santa and Church and Love and Laughter and Happiness and Prayer! Though none of us have ever reached the Church on a Christmas morning, excluding Appacha and Ammachi! Thinking of Christmas now, I miss Appacha a hell lot and Of course, The joy shared during Christmas! In this fast, modern, Tradition less world, It was a joy to hear that excitement of Christmas when I spoke to Chechi! The things they would do when they meet! It reminded me of a Christmas so long ago when everyone was there without a qualm, as if Attendance was taken! Exams having over ridden Christmas has not let the Christmas Spirit out! After all, Christ is with us, Christmas or not! So However we celebrate Christmas with a hell lot of work or with exams, When December arrives... It is Christmas Time once again!

When Perfect turns Im-perfect!

There are times in Life when you think that what you are thinking is right, but on hitting REALITY you realise otherwise! She had the most wonderful person beside her, speaking about Perfect He was. But when Life took her on a roller coaster ride, She started liking Imperfect! She never thought twice! She started forgetting about her Mr Perfect! But when she was brought down after that Ride, she realised she was alone! She was hurt! She wondered... She tried sliding back quietly but did she prefer Mr Imperfect? Mr Perfect was hurt and so was she! And Mr Imperfect knew nothing or so he pretended! Mr Perfect would easily forgive her and take her back, but he did not know the reason! Only she knew and so did Mr Imperfect! Or atleast so she thought! Life is really a Roller Coaster Ride! A rough one at that with a lot of lessons to learn on the way! After all its Life not a Dream!

All Life really needs to give us is a Rewind button!

Its Human to err.... And sometimes the error made costs us a lot- Money, Relationships and the like! But When we ponder on what has the most value, Its the Relationships with people which rank the highest! There are many a time I wished I could have that second chance at Life- A Rewind button! Just once have I got the chance to use it till now and It was a wonderful feeling! The happiness, The joy which filled me was just too awesome a feeling to be described! I wish Life was that easy to mend but Alas.... Being an Engineering Student, we are taught a hell lot about How things work! But why didnt anyone stop and teach us How Life worked? Maybe Someone should just Invent a Rewind button! A Rewind button to mend all the broken hearts out there, To rectify errors made! Because we have got just one chance at This game called Life and many of us Fail! And since Life is a "No looking back", Hurtful game, Its high time someone Invents The REWIND BUTTON!