When Perfect turns Im-Perfect!

She wonders if its the end! It surely did feel like the end. Mr Imperfect seems to have stopped speaking to her after a Question he asked which she never gave an answer to!
She seems extremely happy for a reason she herself cant find!
Maybe cause she finally gathered the guts and told Imperfect that she still had feelings for him! Though he never replied which he usually does, but the happiness...
Maybe it was cause of the burden released after a very long time! Maybe she should get along with her Life this time! She had finally told him everything for whatever it was worth. The Worst or the Best! Whatever that meant.
Things which she thought he would understand he never did! Things which she thought about him seemed all wrong and she couldn't get a way back! Things just had this very funny way of getting back at her!
She wondered how long it would take for things to get back to Normal. Or maybe it would never get back to Normal. Maybe it wasn't meant to be! She wanted to leave but she just couldn't get herself to leave.
The ending didn't seem Happy? Maybe it wasn't Happy on only one side! Maybe Happy Endings were after all a Myth.

A Two way trip to Heaven!

Everyone wonders what death is like! Whether its something to be scared of or whether its something to be rejoicing about!
Some people talk about seeing heaven when their in COMA or even in their dreams!
But Ammachi, She did Go there and come back! Everyone's going to probably think she's just crazy but I strongly believe so!
Ammachi was unconscious for almost 5 mins, before it was noticed. A Doctor next door was called who was free that very moment and wouldve engaged herself in some other work if it was brought to her notice a few seconds later!
The first sign that heaven was not accepting Ammachi so early!
It was almost 5 minutes and A rescue was like a Miracle waiting to happen! The Doctor came and did the needed, Ammachi slowly did open her eyes! She took time to adjust but she was alright after that!
The second sign that heaven was not accepting Ammachi so early!
Maybe they had to make it up to Me cause they did take Appacha away from Me a bit too early!
When I spoke to Ammachi, my heart just melted and tears welled up and I cried. She asked me whether I was alright and why I was crying! How could I tell her that we had almost lost her to the Unknown for a while!
Within No time, I was by Ammachi's side and the only thing she kept talking about was Heaven!
She told me how she would come running and hug and kiss me when I came to Heaven! And told me that Heaven had an Eligibility criteria. Boy, was I fed up or what of hearing about them! Iv listened to it my entire childhood. But something made me listen to it with extra eagerness this time!
She told me to be like the wonderful people they were! Its tough to meet up to that expectation I thought, but it made me want to give it a shot when she said that She would dance with joy in Heaven everytime she sees us live up to their expectations!
Then Amma came up to her and asked her whether she wanted rest! She looked at my Mother and said that she was tired but there was nothing more that could fill her with Joy then helping us a little in Life's long journey!
She came back as a different person! Maybe she really did go to Heaven! Maybe she was sent back not cause Heaven was full or not cause they were not ready. But because she had more to live, talk and help people with their Lives.
She was a Blessing, is a Blessing and will forever be a Blessing to Me and my Family!
There is nothing more than an I love you Ammachi that can fill the Void which I felt when I thought she was going to leave me forever!

When Perfect turns Im-Perfect!

Something which she thought had ended a while back, struck again!
She tried figuring what exactly He was! She thought He would always turn out the Nice Guy she thought him to be! She compromised a lot, though her friends warned her against it! All that compromising had hurt her to the extremes. He never bothered coming out into the open! It was like He was scared of something! Something which would get his Ego all down! Something which he could not Imagine doing!
But had he gotten away everytime by joking around?
Or Maybe that wasn't called Flirting or Joking around according to him! Only according to everyone else!
Maybe he was just putting up a Good boy Image up! Trying not to give in to anything! That surely did Work!
She wondered why she bothered So much! Alas, only she knows and would not want any one else to know why she bothered so much!
Maybe saying a Sorry was not in his Genes. Or Maybe the Good Boy or Bad Boy Image which ever he thought he needed to keep up to had to be kept And there was No Sorry involved there!
But all she had to tell him was-
"Whether your Great or Not so Great! Small or Big! The Good or the Bad! An Apology forever will remain the same!"
Maybe he doesn't know how to care for People! Maybe He just knows how to Hurt them!
Maybe just Maybe He is Im-Perfect!
Or Maybe again this is just filled with Assumptions, though she will Never know the truth.

Turning 21!

Turning a Year Older usually puts us on an all time low! But Turning 21 was something I was looking forward to for a very long time! Its been a while since Iv written. I just couldn't get myself to write! Maybe cause of the Overdose of events which took place in a month or Maybe cause I just couldn't convert anything of the past one month into words! Or Maybe just Maybe I was having A Blogger's Block.

Turning 21 was something I looked forward to for a very long time! The Day just came like that and went without me even getting a taste of turning 21 slowly!
I remember a friend saying when I said Im looking forward to Turning 21! I was asked why? Whether it was cause I was a year more closer to death! Well that wasn't the reason! Its cause I thought maybe I could try something altogetherly different. Like making a New Word- Altogetherly!
But thinking about that statement I really do not want to turn older than 21!
I wanna be 21 till I Die!

I remember that small girl, she was the Apple of her Grandfather's eye from the day she was born! Its Sad, He left her early! He was the most amazing person she had ever seen! He had a wonderful Personality! She never will imbibe all his Qualities! But there is one thing which she has that No one else in the entire family has except her Grandfather. It's the weird Brown Colour of their eyes.
She grew up to be an extremely Naive human. Though she never liked showing anyone she was Naive until people figure out so.
The Heel of Achiles was always her heart and will always be!
She defied Rules set down to her! She was a Rebel when No one expected her to be! But not once did she cross her Limits. She had always set her Limits even though it was past the Limits set down for her!
But at the end of it! She realised she's got the most wonderful things anyone could ask for!
An ever loving family!
Friends who stay by you forever even If the last time you saw them was 5 years ago.
People just Random People ( This reminds me of Probability which I learnt a Semester back!) who turn out to teach you a lot about Life! Even though those are things which you should have known on your own!
I really couldn't ask for a better 21st Birthday!
A Birthday celebrated with Friends and Family with Lots of Love and Prayer! Though there were a few Important People missing. But I know they'll make it up somehow.
I love you all! Thanks for making it extra special.