When Perfect turns Im-Perfect

The Heel Of Achiles for many young girls is their heart.... It was no different for her! She always made Her Heart the judge of Matters of the Heart... Only to get hurt, time and again! Her mind would warn her about the Implications her actions would lead to... Alas, her heart seemed like a young, free spirit! She gathered up all her courage to tell Mr Imperfect what was in her mind, Only to get a simple reply "... but Mr Perfect stole you away!" Mr Perfect did not steal her away, He had given her an Ultimatum! An Ultimatum which she thought she would never be able to give! She love' Mr Perfect for him but...! She wondered if She should let go... She wondered whether it was worth fighting for... She wondered if it was all worth the hurt she had been put through! Alas... The umpredictable things of Life always remain unpredictable! Maybe she should follow the basic rule of Life: " When you let go of something You badly need in your life and if it does come back, It was always yours!"

Its Christmas Time Once again....

When we were small, Christmas was always spent with Appacha and Ammachi! Everyone came down, leaving all the work and studies they had just to enjoy being with the family! It was a time filled with shopping and gifts and Santa and Church and Love and Laughter and Happiness and Prayer! Though none of us have ever reached the Church on a Christmas morning, excluding Appacha and Ammachi! Thinking of Christmas now, I miss Appacha a hell lot and Of course, The joy shared during Christmas! In this fast, modern, Tradition less world, It was a joy to hear that excitement of Christmas when I spoke to Chechi! The things they would do when they meet! It reminded me of a Christmas so long ago when everyone was there without a qualm, as if Attendance was taken! Exams having over ridden Christmas has not let the Christmas Spirit out! After all, Christ is with us, Christmas or not! So However we celebrate Christmas with a hell lot of work or with exams, When December arrives... It is Christmas Time once again!

When Perfect turns Im-perfect!

There are times in Life when you think that what you are thinking is right, but on hitting REALITY you realise otherwise! She had the most wonderful person beside her, speaking about Perfect He was. But when Life took her on a roller coaster ride, She started liking Imperfect! She never thought twice! She started forgetting about her Mr Perfect! But when she was brought down after that Ride, she realised she was alone! She was hurt! She wondered... She tried sliding back quietly but did she prefer Mr Imperfect? Mr Perfect was hurt and so was she! And Mr Imperfect knew nothing or so he pretended! Mr Perfect would easily forgive her and take her back, but he did not know the reason! Only she knew and so did Mr Imperfect! Or atleast so she thought! Life is really a Roller Coaster Ride! A rough one at that with a lot of lessons to learn on the way! After all its Life not a Dream!

All Life really needs to give us is a Rewind button!

Its Human to err.... And sometimes the error made costs us a lot- Money, Relationships and the like! But When we ponder on what has the most value, Its the Relationships with people which rank the highest! There are many a time I wished I could have that second chance at Life- A Rewind button! Just once have I got the chance to use it till now and It was a wonderful feeling! The happiness, The joy which filled me was just too awesome a feeling to be described! I wish Life was that easy to mend but Alas.... Being an Engineering Student, we are taught a hell lot about How things work! But why didnt anyone stop and teach us How Life worked? Maybe Someone should just Invent a Rewind button! A Rewind button to mend all the broken hearts out there, To rectify errors made! Because we have got just one chance at This game called Life and many of us Fail! And since Life is a "No looking back", Hurtful game, Its high time someone Invents The REWIND BUTTON!

Life in a NUTSHELL in our INBOX!!

I always discarded forwards as I found them as just another thing people do to finish their free messages! But recently I realised that they did mean something and it was as if People were trying to EMPATHISE with me! Empathy seemed like a far off solution! But now I make it a point reading what people send, I realise it does strike a cord! A forward I recently got was about Compromises we make, but at the end it really does not matter because the person you would have compromised for would have hurt you the amount you had Compromised! So true.... And the fact that that was exactly what I was facing made me think that someone is trying to teach me things about Life which I always thought I knew! We compromise to save a relationship but at the end instead of saving, it just deletes itself! There is just 1% of people who are truly willing to hear you out and who love you, the rest are not bothered! That was another forward sent to me! So true again! Guess our Inbox does serve as a source of enlightenment! :)

When You fall in LOVE and then fall out of it!!

Looking through People' lives, we realise that God has a plan for each one of us! I never really believed it when it involved Love! But now I am a firm believer of that statement! Iv been among the few who have been hurt by love, but one day or another you soon realise that it was for the good! At points, We wonder why God breaks people up! But i guess that is after all Love- Love of God because he would want the best for us! Did it not break Abraham when God told him to kill his son Isaac? But God did have a plan! He is working on each one of us! I remember reading that "Love is giving up your happiness for others!" I may not seem feasible but The truth always hurts! Seeing someone you like or even liked happy, melts you and you begin feeling good! Cause At the end, LOVE REIGNS! If you have not got a person, its just cause God' in the process of giving you your Princess or even your Knight in shining armour!! So keep your cups of Love forever full because you just wont know whose falling in Love with you!

When Perfect turns Im-perfect

When she turned around to look at him, for that one last time she realised she had lost him forever! She longed to turn back time, Alas! He had taught her a lot about life, had been with her through difficult times, had been her constant let out until things turned awry! In his terms, she seemed Robotic! She liked it that way! He tried turning her into a more humanoid creature only to give up at the end! She did turn human, with feelings for that one guy! Had she mistaken him? Whatever the case was, it did stop and so did that wonderful unsaid, unspoken relationship shared! She knew he was commited and so was she but Love come' in the most unlikely ways! She always wondered why Life never went her way and she remembers what he told her before they parted ways, " If Life went our way, It cant be called Life... It can only be called a dream." Though she thought she had The Perfect Life, He proved wrong! She had turned down Perfect for Imperfect! He taught her it was okay being Imperfect (for a while though)!

That little voice called LIFE!!

She seemed so lost, so confused! She asked herself whether she was the root cause of all the problems surrounding her! A little voice whispered inside her, "You can change your destiny, if you wish to do so!" But she never wanted to defy the norms attached! She always thought, Life would make decisions for her as and when required! But this time, Life just seemed not to budge! Life seemed like a stand still! She looked around her, everyone seemed to be in their own world! She wished she had a different Life! A little voice inside her whispered, "You can change your destiny, if you wish to do so!" She did not realise her dreams were in her hand! She could love and live the life she wanted but she was still scared! She now leads the life she never wished to..... I wonder how she must feel now, happy for not defying the norms or unhappy for not defying the norms! I wonder when we look back, whether we will ever realise life giving us that second chance!! How and for whom we live it is what matters!

Life in all it's Glory!!

*Life is one of the most unpredictable of games!! *Life hurls stuff at you which you and only you can face!! *Never try to run away from the truth!! *The truth hurts, but it is best hearing the truth!! *You cant please everyone all the time!! *You live your life for yourself not for anyone else!! *If you think, you have faced the worst, Ask yourself "Compared to what?" *Play your level best!! *Your life is not in your hands, He'll always look after you in your worst!! *He is the only predictable of things but he comes in the most unpredictable of times!!

ANON....

When life weighs you down with unfair instances, all you want to do is shout it from the roof tops! But with a mask, because you do not want to be known associated with it!! A routine in our family is a family prayer, And a read through "Our Daily Bread", usually gives us a diiferent perspective each day on life!!! I wanted to do something about the injustice being faced in college, but i wanted to be anon!! That evening when we had are prayers, the topic read was about "Being Anon"!! It struck a cord, It was as if God was talking to me!! It said if you prefer to be Anon, its because You do not want to be associated with your stand!! If you were that sure of your stand you would not keep your identity as, ANON!! Thats when I realised, I was not able to take my stand!! And so I have decided, I may not be able to take my stand now but I will lash back not as "ANON", But as "ME"!!

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

There are points in life when everyone just wants to be left alone!!! But these points are the only points in life when there are people surrounding you!!! Life!!! I want to break free, start really living my life! Rather than living for someone else!! "Its my life!" Alas wish the people who need to know that truth would realise that!! :( Its too late for a change, I do not want a change! All i want is a little space!!!

She told me so.....

She told me when I was small never to trust people, I did not! She told me never to talk to stranger, I did not! She told me lots! But she hid as much! I wondered who she really was! I wondered whether she would run my whole life for me! Just then she handed over the baton to me! I was scared but I had a vast world to explore! I soon started realising things she hid from me! I uncovered truths which she was scared of telling me! Then she started doubting whether she handed over the baton too soon! But I was way ahead she could not catch up! I know she regrets ever knowing me but that is what life is about after all! I love her, she knows that! But i hate her, she knows that too when she acts like she knew it all the while! All I want her to know is that I am old enough to run my race on my own! That I will err because I am human!

SOS!!!

If you were to study in a college like mine, under a department llike mine and under a HOD like mine for 4 years!! I assure you, you would prefer being charged of murder and being put in jail for it!! Professional colleges having such kind of HOD'!! Sometimes I wonder, Is this why I joined Engineering? It is just a pure test of who gets tortured the most!! We are treated like school kids!! Even my brother who came along for a meeting, could not stand my HOD!! And he was hardly here for an hour! Once we enter our department, its like we have been trapped!! Like a lion trapped in its cage and roaring out aloud "SOS"!! If we bunk an hour, we are to give a valid reason the next day!! This was not prevalent even in school!! We do not have teachers for our core subjects but a seminar a week is a must!! We ask him for teachers, he says get a university rank and il give u a teacher!! I do not know who is pulling the strings but This is the state of affairs in my college!! Alas!! SOS IS OUR CRY!!

Im a person whose always been surrounded by people right from school and at points i love it! But there comes a time when every person sits back for a while and sees how the world moves on. And the time when i did that i realized i was far behind by every aspect in life! i always thought that people who were your friends would remain your friends forever but that hardly seemed correct!
Whenever i look at the series of FRIENDS, I wonder does that true spark of friendship still exist? How many of us have lied to our best friends trying to hide some secret which you dont want people to know?
When I passed out of school, I realized that the people who mattered the most in my life remained few and that very few mattered to me a lot!
I just love the few friends i have!