She wondered why everything seemed a joke to him, She wondered why he kept emphasising on the fact to take Life as it came! Foreplanning was something she always did.... She would always look ahead! She knew the future seemed bleak and had the highest probablity of an Impending disaster! But this was it, he had moved on and she had just stuck on only to get hurt again! She had reached the bottom. The bottom with a million hard rocks. She would probably never tell him how she has felt over the entire episode. Rather Saga! She wrote her mind out on paper!
Mr Imperfect this is for you,
"I probably would never know where it just cut off! But I think Iv figured it out by now! What we shared back then I really can't term it but I really did enjoy the time together! Though the times led me to do some stuff which hurt people! I wish you could have just told it to me! Or maybe as usual I just assumed a lot! But whatever it is you must know that the amount I had compromised, the amount I hurt people you just added it both up and hurt me! You have put me in a fix by making me feel that I was just an option in your life! You made me feel like I was the spare tyre! But once you had got what you really needed, you left everything else! And never felt the need to explain. As usual! I wish just for once you will be truthful and just spill out what has been happening! Cause I really have not understood. We used to like being each other' friend! But now its like we just want to maintain the friendship that we remain Cordial to each other! Reminding Me Time and again of the times we shared, Which I fell in Love with again and again! Now I guess we have reached the Saturation point. And I am happy that you seem happy all over again! I may seem a bit fake now but that is the truth. Though I have been a way bit truthful with you! I wish I had not but there is No crying over spilt Milk. All I can say now is rather give now is one tight hug, cause I really dont know what to say! All the best with your Life ahead! This episode surely has to end sometime and now seems the best! I would surely love it when the old you is back! But I guess you cant bring that back once your need did get satisfied. If ever you read this, I really dont know what your reaction would be! You must be furious for bringing you out in this light. Must be furious cause I never bothered to know the truth, but you really never opened up! Must be relieved cause Im finally out! Or I dont know! You probably will never read this! I no longer can guess who you are. Cause I really dont know who you are. Someone once told me that the moments you live the most are the moments which would be lived in lies! So true. Is it not? At least for me it is! Thanks once again for everything."
She wished she could bring everything back to the way it was! But there was this fear and she did not want to put herself through anymore Hurt! Cause she had reached the tip of the peak of getting Hurt!
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